Finding My Place and My People

I’ve just returned from our Ovarian Cancer Canada retreat as a Patient Partner in Research—and I’m still trying to fully capture what this amazing experience meant to me.

Over the course of two days, a group of us gathered in person after months of connecting virtually. We came from across Canada, each bringing not just our suitcases, but our stories, our energy, and our shared experiences as people living with or affected by ovarian cancer.

This retreat marked the first time I had the chance to meet most of these incredible women in person. We’ve seen each other in countless Zoom squares and collaborated through research initiatives—but being face-to-face changed everything. There’s something profoundly powerful about being in a room with people who just get it. We laughed, we cried, we learned, we listened—and yes, we danced.

Despite our shared diagnosis, what struck me most was how beautifully unique everyone is. Our paths, personalities, and perspectives are all so different, and yet we’re united by something deeper and unspoken. It was moving, humbling, and unforgettable.

Leading up to the retreat, I was excited to attend—but also nervous. I couldn’t wait to finally give real hugs to these familiar faces. But I was also anxious: What if I didn’t quite fit in? What if my story didn’t measure up? The thought of presenting my story felt vulnerable—and emotionally nerve-wracking. As confident as I usually am, sharing my personal journey with a room full of people I deeply admire made me a little shaky.

But as time passed with this great group, those fears began to melt away. I was met with warmth, openness, and an immediate sense of belonging. I was reminded—again—that there is so much strength in shared experience, and so much power in showing up exactly as we are.

I’m incredibly grateful to be part of the Patient Partners in Research group, and even more grateful for the generous, welcoming women who’ve made space for me to grow and find my place here. This retreat reminded me that while we may come from different corners of the country and walk different paths, we are not alone.

I’m carrying this experience with me—closer to my heart than I can fully explain—and I know it’s just the beginning of something deeply meaningful in my journey. 

I’m more committed than ever to using my voice, my story, and my heart to help shape a future where no one faces ovarian cancer alone.

2024 Reflections

We often move through life, day by day, letting time pass without fully pausing to embrace the present. Between busy work schedules and the demands of home life, it’s easy to get caught up in the routine and forget how truly fortunate we are.

As I reflect on the past year, I’m reminded of just how lucky I am to have navigated another year of life, surrounded by love and filled with precious memories.

For me, this time of year has become particularly difficult. In January 2019, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Then, in January 2022, I faced a recurrence. This time of year, inevitably, brings with it a bit of extra worry. After my last recurrence, I was told to expect my cancer to return more quickly and with greater intensity. Studies have shown that this is often the pattern, and many of my fellow cancer friends have had similar experiences.

Despite this, I carry hope. I focus on staying healthy and work hard to keep the fear at bay. I keep myself busy, surrounded by my family and friends, and make an effort to fully live my life in the moments I have. Though I bear a heavy load, I’ve learned to carry it well over the years. Yes, there are tough days, but they’re far fewer now than they were in the early stages of my diagnosis.

I know I’m not alone - many of us face challenges, some visible and others hidden. Balancing life, managing worries, and coping with our realities is a daily task. One day at a time has become my method of survival.

Acknowledging my struggles doesn’t make me weaker or stronger—it simply makes me human.

 

Even amid the difficulties, I’ve been fortunate to experience so many beautiful moments over the past year. Some of the highlights I’m most grateful for include:

• Watching my oldest daughter graduate from university with honors.
• Celebrating a BIG 49th birthday with many friends and family!
  
• Celebrating our 25th wedding anniversary. 
• Celebrating my parents’ milestone 75th birthdays. 
• Traveling to Mexico with dear friends. 
• Visiting Alberta with my three daughters to spend time with beloved cousins. 
• Attending a concert with my mom, sister-in-law, and daughters. 
• Celebrating with all 12 of my dad’s siblings. 
• Golfing a lot, so many fun, memorable rounds.
• Coaching basketball again, grateful for the opportunity!
• Enjoying vacations in Prince Edward Island and New Brunswick
• Receiving clear CT scans and good CA125 results in 2024.

These moments serve as a reminder that even in the face of uncertainty, life is full of joy, love, and blessings.

As I continue on this journey, I remain grateful for the support of my family, friends, and medical team. I’m not sure what the future holds, but I do know that I’ll keep moving forward—one day at a time, embracing both the struggles and the triumphs, always holding on to hope.

 

Happy New Year! May this year bring you all good health and happiness!